I shared on Facebook a few days ago about my recent miscarriage. Mr. Handsome and I are very grateful for the encouraging comments and well wishes that many of you left, as well as for your prayers.
This has been a difficult time for us, and especially for me, but it has been incredibly comforting to hear, based on words shared by other moms who have been through miscarriage, that my grief has been very normal.
The first week was the hardest because the postpartum hormones were raging. When I wasn’t crying, I was actively holding back tears. It helped to have our rambunctious toddler as a distraction and a reminder of the blessings that God has given us. And Mr. Handsome was so compassionate and attentive. His sorrow was great, but not as great as mine because I was the one who carried the baby and had that special connection.
The second week has been significantly easier, but the feeling of loss is still very present. Through this whole experience, though, I have felt such an overwhelming peace. Even in the three days when I began having miscarriage symptoms but still did not know whether the miscarriage would occur (what a difficult time that was!), I felt peace knowing that God was with me.
We believe that life begins at conception and that every tiny human conceived is created by God and has an eternal soul. Unborn babies and young children who die do not have the mental ability to accept or deny God’s gift of salvation through His son Jesus Christ. For that reason, we believe that all little ones go to heaven when they leave this earth.
This wasn’t something I had spent much time thinking about before our miscarriage, but when we lost the baby, the thought immediately popped into my head that he or she is safe in God’s arms, and with that came great peace.
As I searched Scripture, I was able to find verses on the subject, and I also found sermons from two pastors that Mr. Handsome and I have great respect for that go into depth on the topic, with Scriptural evidence. A friend sent me two books that I am looking forward to reading. Knowing that I will spend eternity in heaven with God and other believers has always been an incredible promise, and that promise is even sweeter knowing that I have a precious child up there who is waiting to meet me.